-Coldplay

I've never felt so destroyed in my life. All that blood, sweat & tears completely went down the train just like that. What went wrong? Honestly I have no clue. I studied hard, really hard, in fact harder than some and it didn't reflect on my results. Those who practically flunk Os get better scores that me. WHAT?! What went wrong! My strongest subjects aren't strong enough. I feel like I've let my parents down.

Although mom & dad are (surprisingly) really satisfied with my results, but i think they deserve so much more. I wanted to use my results as a way to repay them after all the sacrifices they've made for. I wanted to make them feel that it was worth making all the sacrifices. But no, I didn't get what I want. I feel like I've disappointed them, even when i didn't. I just really wanted to show them what I'm made of. I wanted to prove to everyone  who's looked down on me that i am better than they think (particularly my relatives), that I'm not hopeless, That I'm clever.

Sure, i can get into nursing. But the quality of my scores isn't up to my expectations.
I'm really destroyed. I can't stop feeling like I'm a disgrace.I know I'm not. I mean, dad was really happy that I can finally go into Poly, considering the fact that his other daughters didn't make it. Mom was especially cute. She didn't care if I didn't reach my goal, she was really happy that I have the opportunity to pursue my childhood dream of being a nurse. :) Yeah, But i feel that I could have done so much better.

Sigh, there's nothing much I can  really do about it. I'm slowly trying to accept my scores and keep moving forward. I feel much better today compared to when I first got my results thanks to my ever so caring Church friends, classmates & of course, supportive parents. Looking forward to the next 3 years of Nursing.




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" Be contented, and you shall recieve more "

I'm sure everything has its reason. I think for this, God deliberately gave me what I need and not what I want.