(2017 Backpacking trip with TJS).
OH WHY HELLO THERE!
Its beeen almost 2 years since my last blog post.
Adulthood *rolls eyes*
I've solely been busy and just living the moment that sometimes i forget that Its good to pen down thoughts, especially when everything is chaotic.
2019 was no doubt one of the hardest years I've ever had. ever.
I kinda predicted it at the beginning of the year, but I honestly didn't expect that It would have been THAT insane.
Just a little Peak to what it was like:
1. Juggling a Full-time highly demanding and exhausting job
Its nursing. Nuf said.
2. Studying Part-time
I would wake up at 5am, rush to work by 630am (in the central area) work 8 hour shifts, then rush over to the west to attend 3-4 hours of either Lectures or tutorials, then rush back to the east to get some rest, and do it all over the next day. My school's on the weekday, so mostly, I'd be doing that routine for like 5 consecutive days. I sleep less than 6 hours, and some nights only 4, but still conquer each day slowly and painfully.
If you ask me how I survive, I don't know. I really don't.
3. Maintaining a LDR
Yess! I have a boyfriend (finally!) I honestly thought i'd be a single lady, considering i have a family history of single ladies on the mother's side. So I really praise the lord!
My bae's from Aussie, Perth specifically, and we've been together for about 1.5 years now (aww!)
Unfortunately when we got together, I had already started Uni, hence we had no choice but to do a LDR. We are surprisingly nailing at this LDR thang - we try to meet in Bali every few months considering it's the midway between Perth and SG, and Nightly video calls.
But obv every Relationship isn't daisies and ponies, and there are times we would fight or even miss each other alittle bit more. There are days, esp when I'm stressed or upset, I wished he was next to me, to hug and tell me everything's gna be alright.
Its hard I guess, but it's worth it.
"Distance means so little, if someone means so much"
4. Adulting
Responsibilities, Bills, Money, Family.
Unfortunately, the role of being a responsible adult was handed to me at the age of 17, just after secondary school. Which sucks tbh, cause I'm just a kid, I wanna have fun and make silly mistakes.
Being a registered Nurse in Singapore, I honestly earn Peanuts.
I earn apprx $3000 (rounded off) and this amount is stretched amongst school fees, personal phone bills, Parents' phone bills, Transport, Other Bills, Insurance, Parents' allowances, Healthcare (I did a root canal unfortunately - $3.5K), daily expenses, etc etc idk what else.
School fees alone would cost me S$6500/6 Months, so that would mean I have to set aside at least S$1000 per month.
I live in Tampines, Work in Thomson, and School in Clementi. I take Taxi/Grab when I have to do Morning shifts, because there is no way I can wake up at 4am just to travel 1.5 hours to work, and on average I work at least 4 Morning shifts per week.
So do the math.
5. Revive my almost non-existential Social life.
I'm a Nurse. Enuf said.
So yeah, 2019 was cray cray for me.
But hey, I did, Didn't I? and one must always look back, reflect, and be grateful.
Because "if you can't be thankful for what you have, at least be thankful for what you have escaped".
I am Thankful For:
I) Good Health.
Amidst the current coronavirus situation, It is a huge reminder to myself that I must always be grateful for my good health. Also, working in the ward, I've witnessed many unfortunate moments where patients discovered (for example) they have cancer, or they are loosing their sight, or even have to go for an amputation. No matter how much money I can own in the world, it can never buy good health. Although I may not have a rocking body, I am at least grateful for my good health, and one must continue to look after it.
II) Supportive Family.
Just to show off (he he), my family's pretty rojak or colourful - Dad's Hakka Chinese, Dad's First Wife is Indian, Mum's Filipino, Brother/Sisters are Chindian, Brother-in-law's Eurasian, and the other BIL is Peranakan! If Bae becomes my hubby, then issa Aussie added into the soup (how dope!!!)
From the very beginning, my parents have been super supportive of my decisions and choice of career. They have given me the freedom to call my own shots and learn from my mistakes, and they are rarely controlling. They just nag at me for not keeping my room tidy OOP!
It's always either Mum or Dad that waits for me till I get home from work (If I do Afternoon shifts), before going sleep, and if I get back from Night shifts, Its always the father that buys curry puffs for breakfast. Mum's always the worried one - reminding me to sleep, eat, and call my boyfriend (haha!). She'll always surprise me with either my favourite dish or Bubble Tea! It really helps especially when I had a shit day at work/schools.
Pap's retired, so he's a self-proclaim house husband. On days where he feels like a food maestro, he'll cook up a storm just to impress me with his cooking skills.
Bro's really chill, but often he'd always wanna show off what he does in school haha. Sisters partially help with some of the bills and it does make a whoooollleeeee lot difference, and with the collaboration of me Papa, they always highlight and force their views on how Australia is a greeeeaaat place for Nurses to work! (Haha, I had my eyes set on the Netherlands for the longest time, partial reason was because I was madly in love with a dude there, but iss all good).
(III) A Job
May not necessarily have the MOST glamorous job in the world, and It may be the most exhausting, frustrating, patience-testing, physically and mentally demanding job, But hey, I still get 3 meals a day and a roof over my head, so deffo cannot complain.
(IV) Supportive Boyfriend Like No Other In The World
I think without him, I wouldn't have survived the year, and I'd prolly be depressed.
He was always there if I needed a listening ear, or someone to cry to. He has helped me emotionally, Mentally, and occasionally financially. There are times where I get overwhelmed with life, and I take out my frustrations on him, but he never loses his temper. There are times I've hurt and disappointed him, but he never gives up on me. He's always there to lend me a helping hand, and always tries his very best to make me happy. And all this from the other continent!
I can't thank this man enough, because without him in my life, I'd be a hella lot impatient and life would be pretty dull.
Thank babe, for just being you, and for loving me unconditionally. :')
(V) Education
School's Tough, no doubt.
And hella expensive.
and Im dying slowly inside.
But hey! I'm an educated woman.
(VI) Friends
Can't name all of them, but y'all know who you are!
To my childhood friends, we have survived puberty and the hormonal changes together, so I'm sure this adulting thang is gonna be a piece of cake, I wish.
Thanks for being there thru in all.
To my work mates, y'all know who you are! Thanks for making a stressful environment a hella fun to work in. and I enjoy our gossips and spontaneous Supper sessions together - Prata Bomb Cheese and Teh O Ice Limau for life!!! and and Also our Buffet dates!!!11
To the People who I am still friends with but hardly meet, thank you for putting trust in our friendship. I'm sorry I rarely get to see you, because #Adulting. Trust me, I have not forgotten you, and you will always have a special place reserved in my heart for you. I look forward to seeing you again :)
To the friends outside of Singapore, OMG I really miss yall! I look forward to seeing you in my future travels, and we can relive our nonsense again!!!!!!!111
To the people who have left my life, I respect your decisions, and wish you every happiness in life and all the best for your future endeavors. Thank you for the good times and memories. Good luck!
As much as it is sad that another year has passed so quickly, I'm glad the struggle is gone! (for now). Time to make way for new struggles and hurdles!
Ohyeah! Lastly, I thank God almighty Father, for without his blessings, and Strength, I may have lost hope in myself and prolly have given up. The power of Prayer is real.
I foresee 2020, the 2nd round of my problems in 2019 HAHA
But its gonna be a little more challenging and rewarding! So I can't wait!
Bring it on 2020, I'm ready for you.
X
